Letting go

I have never been this emotional. Usually, I tell myself, those things are nonsense and that they will only waste my time. Not until now. I never knew I'd loved so much. I want to cry yet I can't. I want to let go but I am holding on. To what? That I do not know.

Is this really letting go?
If it is, please, make it easier for me, if there is an easier way of letting go.

I want to let go and forget. But honestly, what bothers me is what will become of me after this.
Will there ever be somebody for me. Better? I hope not worse.

I once told somebody I am not idealistic. That there is no room for idealists in this world.

I guess I am wrong.
I am wrong.

I'm an idealist, that is why I'm into this kind of trouble. I want a perfect relationship and I am wanting it too soon.

Lord, help me let go. Help me forget my worries for the future. The future is for living, not for worrying.

"Though it hurts like hell, someday, I will forget."
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Artist: Kim Sozzi
Album: Life Goes On
Year: 2000
Title: Letting Go

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe

I still recall the words you said to me
It's what you did not say that sets me free
Now how can I find peace of mind
When you keep coming back again
It's not OK for you to play
This game of see-saw with my head

Now it hurts too much
And it hits too hard
And I won't play this part

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe

So now I say the things I want to say
Sometimes it's better letting go this way
I'll always know down in my soul
We really had so far to go
I've given all I had to give
And now it's time for me to live

And I won't look back
And I won't regret
Though hurts like hell
Someday I will forget

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe

To say that you've been thinkin'
Cause I know it's just the drink in you

It's funny how we seem to end up here
I never thought I'd see this soul disappear

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe

And this is letting go
This is letting go
And this is letting go
This is letting go

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe

Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night

To say that you've been thinkin'
Cause I know it's just the drink in you
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So, is this my "letting go"?