Paramour

i hate it!

there was this one person i really found lovable. i didn't like him much but he took care of us all so i kinda liked him in the end. i realized how much he loved his family- his wife and only son. but then all of a sudden, i found out that he has a...

and i talked to him about it. he's not proud of what he's done but he's happy to have a child. a baby girl.

he's happy, does that mean that he has to be set free? how about the woman that he left? the woman that i love more, and dearly care for? the woman who hated him at one point but is now waiting for him to come back. is it right for her to wait? is it right for him to just leave? i hate him. but i understand him too, somehow.. though i told him i don't.. but somehow, i hate her too.. for waiting. she knows he's not coming back, but she's blinded by love.

i don't know how this predicament will end, if it were to end.. but one thing's for sure. i curse you, paramour. to hell with you!